Maybe it’s time I stopped looking for myself in others.
I need some alone time to figure out what it is I want from myself, from my life… maybe I’ll actually take some steps towards graduating. Or towards sheding some light on the darkness that’s been keeping all my secrets from myself. Maybe I’ll finally look in that mirror and see myself. And maybe this time I won’t run away from me.
Maybe I will catch a glimpse of what could be my sense of purpose. Maybe I’ll even have the courage to pursue it. And maybe when I’m done inventing myself again, I will finally move from this dead spot I’ve been stuck in for the past few years. And then maybe… just maybe, when that new day comes, I’ll be ready… to be seen… to put my strengths and weaknesses out there, to be noticed and appreciated, because come end of day, all I am is imperfection, as unique and worthy as any other…
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28.08.2008 ob 18:02
I’ve said this to you a long time ago. I hope you stop repeating the same powerless patterns over and over, find respect for yourself, and start living on your own, for your own. You have lots of beautiful inside of you, just learn to respect and manage it.
I was thinking about you yesterday, you know? I remembered your words, read some of your emails again… I miss you… and the way we used to talk…
29.08.2008 ob 20:05
We stopped talking a long time ago. Have you changed anything in 4 years? What kinds of relationships do you choose to maintain and what kinds of relationships do you choose to neglect and let go?
I don’t think I have really changed anything… and I don’t think there’s ever been a relationship I actually mantained, mostly I just ride the wave and then, when it’s time to contribute, let it roll out of my life…